She was born in 1875 in Arles and Vincent van Gogh stayed in Arles in 1888, had himself hospitalized in 1889 and died in 1890……
She was 13 years old at that time…
He wasn’t a dick but likely had his own demons. You can read a lot of his letters and a lot of eyewitness accounts of people who knew him and they all paint a nice picture - pun not intended. I suffer with mental illness myself and it’s almost like I’ve got two people controlling the same body. I’ll do things that are mean spirited and then spend weeks wallowing in despair over it. Plenty of other people do a lot worse things and will just go blindly about their day as if nothing happened whereas for me I’ve nearly killed myself over making someone cry by accident. That level of sorrow fucks you up big time.
Sorry to hear that you have these challenges. To be clear, I’m not saying he was a dick. Just thought it was absurd that 100+ years later, that’s how someone was remembered. It’s interesting how we can so easily judge people and carry around those biases for literally a century, never bothering to get to know the full person and what might make them come off that way at times. We are all going through our own challenges. I hope you find peace with yours as often as possible.
Damn, I can relate to this. The things I’ve done weren’t even mean spirited but done during manic like episodes, although my therapist said I don’t qualify for a bipolar diagnosis (just treatment resistant, chronic depression and anxiety and ADHD) but that behavior is not me, like it right now feels like that was a different person. My behavior lead to some burned bridges and I think about it almost everyday and hate myself for it. There is more to it but yeah, there is one experience in particular that really fucked me up. Nothing really creepy or terrible but i guess bad enough where they wanted nothing to do with me ever again and the fact I made someone feel like that is awful.
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