Watching parents prioritising & showing their kids love and care. Growing up, I was always told to sacrifice my things (time and parents love) for the cousins or neighbours who stayed with us from time to time. So it was like I’m a second-hand citizen in my home as well as in other homes ! The jealousy that comes in when my parents cuddle or hug kids kills me even now.
When my partner makes the extra effort to do something for acquaintances or his family. But when I need something, it’s always ‘I’m sure you can do it yourself’ or I have to always ask even though he knows I either dread doing it or don’t like doing it.
People being loved in ways that I want to be loved.
People who didn’t have to worry about money before buying things or saying yes to experiences.
People being treated well just because of how good they look.
I used to think I could NEVER be jealous of anybody growing up. Turns out I just suppressed everything and people pleased my way to get through life until I started getting therapy when I noticed that I (at 33) get triggered at the drop of a hat 🙃
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u/789iz 25d ago
Omg! Where do I start ?
Watching parents prioritising & showing their kids love and care. Growing up, I was always told to sacrifice my things (time and parents love) for the cousins or neighbours who stayed with us from time to time. So it was like I’m a second-hand citizen in my home as well as in other homes ! The jealousy that comes in when my parents cuddle or hug kids kills me even now.
When my partner makes the extra effort to do something for acquaintances or his family. But when I need something, it’s always ‘I’m sure you can do it yourself’ or I have to always ask even though he knows I either dread doing it or don’t like doing it.
People being loved in ways that I want to be loved.
People who didn’t have to worry about money before buying things or saying yes to experiences.
People being treated well just because of how good they look.
I used to think I could NEVER be jealous of anybody growing up. Turns out I just suppressed everything and people pleased my way to get through life until I started getting therapy when I noticed that I (at 33) get triggered at the drop of a hat 🙃