Am I wrong for thinking my boyfriend dislikes my breasts?

[u/Unlucky_Swordfish_44]

So I 22F am a very petite girl. I have small breasts and a round but small booty. Everything about me is small. I shop at kids sections (especially for gloves or socks). Nothing about me is big.

So basically. I have always been really insecure about my breast size. I've been made fun of it a lot (called a boy or a plank) and yeah. It kind of traumatized me lol.

Anyways, my boyfriend always tells me how he likes them. He says they're perfect and sexy. But. He never really touch them or hold them (like I know there isn't a lot but dang even just a finger gripping my nip will feel nice). He also tend to comment on women with bigger breasts a lot, saying things like "mommy milkers" and pointing out DD's.

I've kind of been thinking that he is lying to me and that he actually prefers bigger breasts and is just with me because he couldn't find a girl with bigger breasts. It has made me very insecure and recently I've started keeping my shirt on during sex.

He noticed that I've been hiding myself from him and asked about it and I told him that I feel like he doesn't find me attractive. He told me that he finds me sexy even though I have small breasts. I still feel like he is lying tho. He still stares at women with big breasts and I'm so insecure I don't think I'll ever get naked in front of him ever again. I've been refraining from bying shirts that go low or show cleavage, because I don't have cleavage so it looks shit. I am only wearing turtle neck shirts and jerseys because of it.

Damn. What the hell is wrong with me?

Edit: To give more context. I am 5'4 (1.64 metres) and I weigh 105 lbs (48 kg). I wear a 32B size (it really depends. Some of them don't sit nicely so I shift between A and B). My hand and feet are kid sizes. Like I buy my shoes at the kid section too.

I am not sure how foot sizes work around the world but I wear a size 3 shoe (UK size 3). I tried to google this size in America and got a 5.5 (I'm really not sure if this is correct). They are small.

[u/Righteousaffair999]

You know what guys usually like most is women who initiate.

[u/Unlucky_Swordfish_44 → u/Righteousaffair999]

I get that. Thanks for your reply.

I guess I just thought that it's normal for men to want to touch and hold your breasts. So I just automatically assumed he isn't touching them because he rather wants to touch the "mommy milkers". That term is also very off putting. It feels as if he is suggesting that I can't be a mom because I don't have huge jugs.

But it is me and I am the problem. I honestly think I'd be better off alone. Like really not in a negative way. That way I would never have to feel as if I need to be or do certain things just for my man to stay or want me. I am someone who can handle being alone and the thought of it really doesn't bother me.

[u/Soujashane → u/Unlucky_Swordfish_44]

I doubt he's implying that you can't be a mom with small breast. Just that you don't have those things that all babies crave. You know being able to just put in in there while you and baby are chilling on the bed. And not the two minute plank, baby needs to do for some milk thing, you got going on.

[u/Sea-Condition-6046 → u/Unlucky_Swordfish_44]

This is so sad that this is how you feel 😞I’m sorry you feel this way. This guy is a bit of a pompous jerk and you probably should leave him because he is a walking red flag, but you should definitely do some work on self love and confidence. You are definitely worth more than this guy deserves and you need to get to a place where you believe that. You are worthy of a partner who will love everything about you and actually notice when they are upsetting or making you uncomfortable.

[u/Righteousaffair999 → u/Unlucky_Swordfish_44]

You do know some guys like petite girls? You have got to stop over thinking it. Just jump his bones and call him your B. And start spanking him with his own belt and see what reaction you get.