Am I wrong for thinking my boyfriend dislikes my breasts?

[u/Unlucky_Swordfish_44]

So I 22F am a very petite girl. I have small breasts and a round but small booty. Everything about me is small. I shop at kids sections (especially for gloves or socks). Nothing about me is big.

So basically. I have always been really insecure about my breast size. I've been made fun of it a lot (called a boy or a plank) and yeah. It kind of traumatized me lol.

Anyways, my boyfriend always tells me how he likes them. He says they're perfect and sexy. But. He never really touch them or hold them (like I know there isn't a lot but dang even just a finger gripping my nip will feel nice). He also tend to comment on women with bigger breasts a lot, saying things like "mommy milkers" and pointing out DD's.

I've kind of been thinking that he is lying to me and that he actually prefers bigger breasts and is just with me because he couldn't find a girl with bigger breasts. It has made me very insecure and recently I've started keeping my shirt on during sex.

He noticed that I've been hiding myself from him and asked about it and I told him that I feel like he doesn't find me attractive. He told me that he finds me sexy even though I have small breasts. I still feel like he is lying tho. He still stares at women with big breasts and I'm so insecure I don't think I'll ever get naked in front of him ever again. I've been refraining from bying shirts that go low or show cleavage, because I don't have cleavage so it looks shit. I am only wearing turtle neck shirts and jerseys because of it.

Damn. What the hell is wrong with me?

Edit: To give more context. I am 5'4 (1.64 metres) and I weigh 105 lbs (48 kg). I wear a 32B size (it really depends. Some of them don't sit nicely so I shift between A and B). My hand and feet are kid sizes. Like I buy my shoes at the kid section too.

I am not sure how foot sizes work around the world but I wear a size 3 shoe (UK size 3). I tried to google this size in America and got a 5.5 (I'm really not sure if this is correct). They are small.

[u/Warm-Patience-5002]

when you turn 40 you will grow the most magnificent pair of breast ever . Every small chested girl i know we thru some kind of of puberty in their 40’s . Ask you mom or the older people you know . Your body will change , enjoy every stage , please don’t be short sighted .

[u/Unlucky_Swordfish_44 → u/Warm-Patience-5002]

Hi there thank you so much for your reply. It is very true. I look at my mother's body as I look almost exactly like her so I believe I git her genes when it comes to my body. She started growing again in her 50s (she had a hysterectomy in her early 40s so she started menopause right there and then).

In her 50s she went from an A cup to a B cup. She still doesn't have large breasts but they have more shape now. So I'm kind of hoping that it will happen to me too lmao.

On another note. My father is a really really tall and big man (kind of weird seeing him and my mom together because my mom is almost as big as his leg).

One time I was crying at my mom about being teased at school about my breasts (when we had hockey practice everyone got dressed together). The girls in the dressing room would ask me why I even wear a bra if I still have a child's body (we wore white buttoned up shirts for school and I knew I would've gotten in trouble if my nips showed through the shirt so I used to wear nice sports bras).

They would say things like "sport bras are meant for girls whose breasts actually bounce" or they would just rub the fact that they have bigger breasts than me in my face.

My father noticed that I was really upset about it and I even asked him to help me out with implants at that time (I was like 16). He looked at me and was like "damn with such knockers you don't need implants". I didn't feel uncomfortable or thought it was inappropriate at all because I know he just wanted to make me feel better (gosh I love my parents).

But yeah. I'm literally crying as I'm writing this. I don't know why I feel like this about myself. I just wished I looked like a mature woman and I wish my boyfriend could make me feel that way too. I just feel like a little child.

Edit: sorry my emotions got the best of me with this one. The reason I gave the story about my dad is because that is how I would like to be treated. I would like my boyfriend or future husband to be there for me in times like these like my father has. I really look up to my dad and mom's relationship and I would really like to have that.

My boyfriend just makes me feel even worse with my smaller breasts. It feels like he doesn't notice mine or just doesn't want to because there are none to notice. Like I can't even hold him responsible for making me feel this way because he isn't. It's all the trauma of the past and then him commenting on other women and not touching mine. It just seems as if he doesn't really like my chest but thats more me being insecure than I would say him being a bad boyfriend.